Hell
Yes
I gave up on you a long time ago
How can you blame me?
We made plans to meet and you never showed
You kept me waiting
They said everything would work out just fine
They said you'd help me
But as it turns out it was all a lie
And they're off someplace far away laughing at me
You've been there for me one time in my life
But it didn't matter
You came and went so fast all my hope
And faith in you shattered
And now here I sit alone in this room
No one to confide in
You watched all my dreams come apart at the seams
You laughed, you left, you waited in hiding
Bless me dark father I have sinned
I've done it before and I'll do it again
Cuz it keeps me warm, and makes you smile
Been beneath me all the while
Hell yes
You gave up on me along time ago
I can't say I blame you
I rejected the faith in your holy rays
Is what it comes down to
They said everything would work out just fine
I just went crazy
But I'm better now having a good time
Being selfish, and drunken, and vulgar, and lazy
Bless me dark father I have sinned
I've done it before and I'll do it again
Cuz it keeps me warm, and makes you smile
Been beneath me all the while
Bless me dark father I can't win
Without you I'm as good as dead
Cuz you keep me warm, you make me smile
You've been on my shoulder all the while
Whispering sweet nothings
Whispering sweet nothings
Whispering sweet nothings
You've been whispering sweet nothings
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My
Standard Break From Life
I've got a regular problem
So my standard break from life is in order
I'm having trouble making sentences
I'm older but I don't feel any smarter
You see I don't know what I said to you
And now you're pissed at you know who
And I guess I deserve it
I wish I could waste my time without wasting all your
time
I try to leave a good impression
But it's hard when my obsession's in a wine glass
And when you're only 23
It's not attractive to complain about your sore back
Yes I can bitch until my eyes are blue
And you're in bed with someone new
And I guess you deserve him
Wish I could waste my time without wasting all your
time
You say I'm fixable
A classic case, lack of will
I say I don't wanna try
I'd rather stay here all night
I've got a motivation problem
So my standard break from life is getting longer
Spent over 30 hours in this bed
In two days, I guess I could've phoned her
But now that I'm awake
I'd rather take a drink
And walk down to the lake
And beg the sky for lightning bolts
I can't waste my time without wasting all your time
You say it's fixable
A classic case, lack of will
I say I don't wanna try
I'd rather sit here all night
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Dead
End Road
I thought that you were joking
When you said you couldn't breathe
You said you couldn't breathe
Turns out that you were choking
On a town you couldn't leave
You knew you'd never leave
It met your disapproval at the age of 8 years old
You were only 8 years old
From then on there was no removal
From that one way dead end road
That one way dead end road
I thought that you were laughing
When you cried your eyeballs out
You cried your eyeballs out
And I don't mean to be prying
But what were you so sad about
What are you still sad about
Met your disappointment at the age of 9 years old
You were only 9 years old
From then on there would be no ointment
To take away these burns
To make that pain grow dull and forever ain't that
long
When your smile's stuck in your head like a pop song
All you think about is death
Your dirty head has gone unswept for way too long
now
For way too long now
I thought that you were sleeping
When i found you there in bed
I found you there in bed
When i touched you you were freezing
It turned out that you were dead
It turned out that you were dead
It met your disapproval at the age of 8 years old
You were only 8 years old
From then on there was no removal
From your fucked up head and your broken home and
forever ain't that long
When your smile's stuck in your head like a pop song
All you think about is death
Your dirty head has gone unswept for way too long
now
For way too long now
For way too long now
For way too long now
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Metro
I'm alone
Sitting with my empty glass.
My four walls
Follow me through my past
I was on a Paris train
I emerged in London rain,
And you were waiting there
Swimming through apologies.
I remember searching for the perfect
words.
I was hoping you might change your mind.
I remember a soldier sleeping next to me.
Riding on the Metro.
You wore white,
Smiling as you took my hand.
So removed
We spoke of wintertime in France.
Minutes passed with shallow words.
Years have passed and still the hurt.
I can see you now
Smiling as I pulled away.
I remember the letter wrinkled in
my hand.
"I'll love you always" filled my eyes.
I remember a night we walked along the Sein
Riding on the Metro
I remember a feeling coming over me
The soldier turned then looked away
I remember hating you for loving me
Riding on the Metro
I'm alone
Sitting with my broken glass.
My four walls
Follow me through my past
I was on a Paris train
I emerged in London rain,
And you were waiting there
Swimming through apologies.
Fucking asshole.
I remember searching for the perfect
words.
I was hoping you might change your mind.
I remember a soldier sleeping next to me.
Riding on the Metro.
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Jaked
On Green Beers
It's been a long time since I've been
close to you
It's been a long time since I've been sad.
It's been a while since I've really spent time with
you
Wish I could take back the times that I had.
The only thing that you ever really did for me
Was make me oh so miserable.
And the hope that I never see your face again
Is anything but questionable.
I hope this is goodbye.
I hope this is goodbye.
There was a time when I thought you were a friend
to me
I think those times I was probably just drunk.
And if they offered a test about being a good friend
I'd put money down that you'd surely flunk.
The only thing that you ever really took from me
Were my records to sell them for dope.
Now all I have left is this heart in my chest
And my happiness helping me cope
I hope this is goodbye [x4]
It's been a long time since I've been close to you.
It's been a long time since I've been sad.
It's been a while since I've really spent time with
you.
Wish I could take back the times that I had.
The only thing that you ever really did for me
Was make me oh so miserable.
And the hope that I never see your face again
Is anything but questionable.
There was a time that I thought you were a friend
to me
I think those times I was probably just drunk.
And if they offered a test about being a good friend
I'd put money down that you'd surely flunk.
The only thing that you ever really took from me were
my records to
Hawk them for dope.
Now all I have left is this heart in my chest,
Your dishonesty helping me cope.
I hope this is goodbye.
I hope this is goodbye....
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Queen
of Pain
There's a fire forming, not too far from here
Along the east coast maybe, it resides in you, my
dear
Worn out on our courtesy, we've made our curtain calls
Like vampire bats deprived of blood, into the New
York City night we crawl
And you've got a funny way of showing off your bathoom
surgery
You said you were just cooling down from plans of
leaving me
There's something I should tell you, for we may not
have much time
I've never met arms like yours
The stars at night are big and bright
Deep in your eyes, Miss Vincent
You told me once I made you smile
But we both know damn well I didn't
I'm not much of a jester, but I'd test poisoned food
for you
Your majesty, you're royal blue
I'm royalty, my king of pain
There's a hard rain falling, flooding your attic,
it's clear
Can't put out the fire that resides in you, my dear
There's something I should tell you, for we may not
have much time
I've never seen scars like yours
The stars at night are big and bright
Deep in your eyes, Miss Vincent
You told me once I made you smile
But we both know damn well I didn't
I'm not much of a jester, but I'd test poisoned food
for you
Your majesty, you're royal blue
I'm royalty, my king of pain
The stars at night are big and bright
Deep in your eyes, Miss Vincent
You told me once I made you smile
But we both know damn well I didn't
I'm not much of a jester, but I'd test poisoned food
for you
Your majesty, you're royal blue
I'm royalty, my king of pain
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While
Youre Waiting
There's a hope in my head
That's been cut and bleed
Dry as your bloodshot eyes
And there's smoke in the air
And it's soon to clear
Revealing our demise
There are some who say
That it's a-okay
If it makes you feel all right
It's just way too bad
Now you're worse than sad
All locked up there in side
And I don't know how you feel
But I'll make you a deal
If you'll make it out alive
My shoulders and ears
Are all yours my dear
I Hope it comes as no surprise
You've been known to say
That you're a-okay
When you're feeling sick inside
I just want you to know
I got no place to go
Until the day you die
While you're waiting
Be thankful for your fingers
I'll be fading
With the colors of your pictures
'I'm not crying wolf,' you whisper,
'I'm really dead this time...
I'm really dead this time'
There's a hope in my head
That's been cut and bleed
Dry as your bloodshot eyes
And there's smoke in the air
And it's soon to clear
Revealing our demise
You've been known to say
That you're a-okay
When you're feeling dead inside
I just want you to know
I got no place to go
Until the day you die
While you're waiting,
Be thankful for your fingers,
I'll be fading
With the colors of your pictures
'I'm not crying wolf,' you whisper,
'I'm really dead this time...
I'm really dead this time'
They locked you up
They threw away the key
Sutured your mouth shut
Murdered your family
Right before your eyes
What could you do?
Right before your eyes
They took it all from you
Your contemplating
You hanging from your ceiling
Can't help hating
You for having that feeling
I'm not joking when I tell you
I'd miss you all the time
I already miss you all the time
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Old
School Reasons
I got these thoughts in my head
Dirty as fuckin' and never leavin'
And then best left unsaid
All the drinks under breath
Got some shit off my chest
Put on my back next to the monkey nest
That somebody left
With me the day I was born
I got a hole in my head
The size of lake fuckin' michigan
My pipes lined in lead
Got old school reasons to die
All my money's been spent
On a face lift with via alcohol
This sinner repents
To an empty bathroom reflection
Please take these words
And do with them what you would like
It's a dream I had, drove me mad
Just your time, just my fucking life
I got a bottle in hand
Straight to the ground with all my memories
It's best left unsaid
When they've all been left behind
All my money's been spent
On a D.I.Y. lobotomy
This sinner repents
To a lake and bathroom mirror
Please take these words
And do with them what you would like
It's a dream I had, drove me mad
Just your time, just my fucking life
So take these words
And do with them what you would like
It's a dream you had, drove me mad
Just your time, just my fucking life
And that's my life
Over and over again
It's just my fucking life
It might seem meaningless to you
But it means everything to me
And I'm fucked without you
Please take these words
And do with them what you would like
It's a dream I had, drove me mad
Just your time, just my fucking life
And that's my life
Over and over again
It's just my fucking life
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Warbrain
Thoughts are the shadows of feeling,
always darker, emptier, and simpler. I don't care
if they're fake or real. I just thank them for showing
up at all. I have black periods. Who does not? But
they do not have me, they are not a part of illness,
but a part of my being. What am I saying? I have the
courage to have them. It's four in the morning. This
sucks
I can't go
on
You said my head's too heavy
I need that song
Those trusty chords could pull me through
and early on
they saw the warning signs and symptoms all day long
We sit and dream of better days
Where we'd hit the ground running on empty stories
we've been told
And all those nights we spent together never felt
this fucking cold
When we let the car run in the driveway kiss you one
last time
Before we brought the horses in before the storm of
'59, of '59
of '59
I can't go on, these limbs have grown too heavy
I need that song
A night on earth could pull me through
and early on
They saw the warning signs and symptoms all day long
Wonder how far from here we'll fall
Before we hit the ground running on empty stories
we've been told
And all those nights we spent together never felt
this fucking cold
When we let the car run in the driveway kiss you one
last time
Before we brought the horses in before the storm of
'59, of '59
of '59
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Fine
Without You
Well I'll sit here and convince myself
it's true.
If you keep on telling your friends that we're through.
I've got nothing here but loneliness
Holes in walls and bleeding fists.
My head is pounding like a pillow, like a big black
song.
Well my friends and I try to tell me you're gone.
Won't listen to myself or anyone.
You got on a plane and off you went.
You're never coming back again.
I'm trying to convince myself it's true.
Convincing myself
I'll be just fine without you. [x3]
I'll be here telling myself it's true.
I sit here trying to convince myself it's true.
But you keep on pretending you have no clue.
I'd kill for you and eat the flesh.
Give you the heart and burn the rest.
A thousand miles ain't shit to walk if I'm walking
to hold you but
I'll be just fine without you
I'll be here telling myself
I'll be just fine without you
I'll be here telling myself it's true.
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Hating
Every Minute
Sit down, please make yourself comfortable...
I might need some time
to dance around what I need to say,
I love you to death, I think I need a break.
I spend my days worried out loud,
I gag in my head, I choke it back down.
It hurts me inside to save your insides,
so close my lips tight, move eyes to the side.
This is the way we disappear.
It's easy if you burnout like a star.
This is the way we disappear.
It's easy like a fifty foot fall.
And I'm waiting, for whatever better time...
to evict these words that have rented out my mind.
And I'm hating every minute that I don't speak out
loud,
like a year laying down
like a year laying down
like a year laying down
Relax on this bed of nails, on this plastic sheet,
your blood leaves a trail right back to me.
A problem you see.
Would you please allow a moment to think?
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Dead
And Broken
A deep dark secret down at the bottom
But this bay can't keep it unforgotten.
And a story that was told has now grown taller than
we'd ever wish to be
Beyond belief...
I'll grab the boat if you go grab the anchor,
The tarp and twine and the weights that sank her.
They weren't enough look who showed up
A new light shed is shining through. Illuminating
you as we lay
Side by side, dead and broken
Our lives aren't the same since the night yours went
stolen.
Blood ran black beneath the moonlight. Your lover's
blood ran cold,
Cutting off the hands he used to hold.
A deep dark secret down at the bottom
But this bay can't keep it unforgotten.
And a story that was told has now grown taller than
we'd ever wanna be
Beyond Belief...
Side by side, dead and broken
Our Hearts aren't the same since the night yours went
stolen.
Blood ran black beneath the moonlight. Your lover's
blood ran cold,
Cutting off the hands he used to hold.
We used to hold.
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Sadie
You're on your own my little nightmare you cannot
stay here
It's far too bright for you
If they attack you just lay there,
Play dead dear, it's your only hope of pulling through.
And seconds they seem like a lifetime.
A dream, recurring, a dream that can't come true.
And they'll pin it all on you
after all you've been put through.
"Sadie G. she's crazy, see?"
That's what the white coats say.
Now Ms. Susan A. is losing
every opportunity to put us all away.
Go run along my little nightmare.
Your job is done here.
You've scared them all to death.
If they revive them just sit there.
Just smile dear. Make them thankful for every breath.
The sentence may seem like a lifetime,
a scream, that curdling the blood they found on you.
And your knives and clothing too.
Charlie's broken .22
"Sadie G. she's crazy, see?"
That's what the white coats say.
Now Ms. Susan A. is losing
every opportunity.
Well they found you and they shipped you up the river
the same way that you've bound and gaged.
You've shot and stab.
You tried to set them free, but they've thrown away
the keys.
"I think that if I found a god to me that was so beautiful
that I'd do anything for him. I'd do anything for
god. Even murder, if I believed it was god, how could
it not be right? Because he said it was. I have no
remorse for the killer inside of me, I have no guilt
in me"
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If
You Had A Bad Time
If you had a bad time
At one of my parties
Well I wouldn't expect to be seeing you soon and that's
fine
You have to know what and why
Those things make you happy
You have to know that a second guess ain't worth the
try
Just some words of advice
Maybe you've heard them before but here goes
Just be true to yourself if it lands you in hell,
well, at least now you know
Loud and clear is your heart big and bright are the
places you might someday go
With one million things holding you down, why you're
one of those things
I don't know, no big deal gotta go
If you're up to your ears
In blood, sweat and wasted years
I'm hoping you're going to open your throat
And just scream
You have to know who and why
Which ones miss you when you die
You have to know that a second guess ain't worth the
salt in your eyes
Just some words of advice
Maybe you've heard them before but here goes
Just be true to yourself if it lands you in hell,
well, at least now you know
Loud and clear is your heart big and bright are the
places you might someday go
With one million things holding you down, why you're
one of those things
No big deal
It just sits on my shoulders you're breaking my neck
We get crazy with age now you're under my bed
And it's dark all the time, all the time
Just some words of advice
Maybe you've heard them before but here goes
Just be true to yourself if it lands you in hell,
well, at least now you know
Loud and clear is your heart big and bright are the
places you might someday go
With one million things holding you down, why you're
one of those things
I don't know, no big deal here I go.
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Black
Out
Don't you ask me to come out
When the sun does shine
Let us stay here with curtains drawn
In darkness you'll be mine
Let's wait for the blackout
The light is too bright
Let's wait for the blackout
Wait for the night
Well welcome to my basement flat
No windows to see through
When darkness falls again, my friend
We'll both know what to do
Let's wait for the blackout
The light is too bright
Let's wait for the blackout
Wait for the night
Come walk with me upon the earth
That keeps us both alive
No living thing has lasted here
Yet we can both survive
Let's wait for the blackout
The light is too bright
Let's wait for the blackout
Wait for the night
In darkness there is no sin
Light only brings in fear
Nothing to corrupt the eyes
There is no vision here
At first you may find it strange
But please don't go away
There's power in the nighttime
That you won't find in the day
There is no vision here
There is no vision here
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We
Can Never Break Up
We can never break up
We can never not show
We can never go home
No, we can never elope
We've only got one choice
So let's keep making it
And making it
Making it
And making it
A lot of things can change
A lot of tears will dry
There's no way out of your head
I can't still drink like I'm trying
I never had to work too hard
Let's keep working it
And working it
Working it
And working it
You're like a test, I can't fuck up
You're like a song in my head, like a la la la la
la like a dream
Don't wake me up and if I never see the light again
Well I guess they put me in the ground with this smile
on my head, my love
My love
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Don't
Say You Won't
it's a girl in here, not as sweet
as you
it's a guy like me, some bad tattoos
an empty bar filling up with smoke
and i cry in the ashes, I'm 3 days old
so please don't say you wont be going
out today
cause anywhere i go, wont be anything,
if your not hanging around
it's the blackest cloud,
and it opens up
when i walk outside, and i'm all alone
an empty cell, the furnace chokes,
when i walk through the door, of my broken home
so please don't say you wont be going
out today
cause anywhere i go, wont be anything,
if your not hanging around
cause anywhere i go, wont be anything,
if your not hanging around
please don't say you wont
please don't say you wont
cause anywhere i go, wont be anything,
if your not hanging around
cause anywhere i go, wont be anything,
if your not hanging around
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Buried
I'm awake
It was a half bad dream
That was way too long
My whole life it seemed
That someone started digging me up
Turned my headstone into dust
The sun was swallowed by the trees
The night was here for good
You pulled my hand and my head up
You put oxygen into my blood
You walked me through the gates like we were visitors
for the day
You laid me down in the back seat
And you drove till I woke up to hear you say
You never lie but it's no fun to tell
the truth
I guess I never loved but I will see what I can do
Got so much life to waste that I would take my days
and hand them to you
I'm awake
It was a half bad dream
That was way too long
My whole life it seemed
That someone started digging me up
Turned my headstone into dust
I know you never lie but it's no fun
to tell the truth
I guess I never loved but I will see what I can do
Got so much life to waste that I would take my days
and hand them to you
I know you never lie but its so hard
to tell the truth
I guess I never loved but I will see what I can do
Got so much life to waste that I would take my days
and hand them to you
To you.
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Dethbed
Calling all cars all coroners, we
got a dead one here
And anybody else receiving this, the west coast is
far from clear
Like a time bomb, or sudden death it's gonna find
you
When you least expect It's gonna leave you
The emptiest feeling inside (over analyzed)
They found me face-down in the street
On the night you left to find another place to sleep
In rain and regret
They said they tried everything but it was no use
Yeah they tried everything and everyone but you
Falling like stars into the ocean black we're going
to disappear
And anything left recognizable is rubbed away with
fear
We've got heart dipped in time release
We've got the know-how and the elbow grease
We've got our victim all cut up down here on the floor
(Over and out the door)
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I'm
Dying Tomorrow
I'm dying tomorrow
This house, this street, Chicago
I'm dying tomorrow
Did I do it right
Did I remember to sleep in
Take lots of pills
Commit irreversible sins
Did I at least try to kiss the prettiest girl
At the right time
Did I remember to keep your beer as full as mine
Did I remember to say cheers
Did I at least try to make sure everybody had a good
time
Had the best time
Did I remember to stay up late
Drinking for the fun
Singing for the taste
Did I run outside to kiss the rain
Under electrical skies
I'm dying tomorrow
This house, this street, Chicago
I'm dying tomorrow
Did I do it right
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